Something Greater From The Distance
A poem
I didn’t know what I was in for the first time I saw
your face on the sonogram, or when your little kicks
gave me flutters, or when the doctor placed you upon
my chest after you came screaming into this world.
I didn’t know how much my heart would expand. Didn’t
know how much I would worry. Didn’t know how much
I would cherish holding you — no matter the hour.
They tell you that you are a different person after
having a child. That you see things differently. That
you feel things more deeply. That you will never
again be alone, even when the house is quiet, and
the kids are out, and your spouse is somewhere else —
for your heart will always be tied to them — like a magnet.
Like an invisible string. Like a puzzle piece that only
they can complete.
I sometimes think about the woman I was before I
held you in my womb. About the things that I did and
the things that I did not. About the dreams that I had
and the ones that have morphed into something new.
